My Eyes Keep Leaking

Wednesday, January 21st at 10:08 am is the exact moment my world (and mind) started spinning. As soon as I heard the surgeon's voice on the phone I knew it was not good news, since there was no reason he would personally be calling. From that moment I was on the phone nearly constantly until almost 4:00pm calling our family and friends. It was exhausting emotionally, and there were so many tears.

Now that we are a couple of days out from that phone call, the tears still keep coming. There is so much grief, shock and uncertainty. I will be doing fine for a few hours, and then a thought sends me spiraling and more tears fall. I am not really much of a crier (or someone who "spirals"). I am definitely someone who wants ALL the information, up front, all at once, and then I am ready to deal with it...so this waiting period between that phone call and the February 4 oncology consultation feels unbearble.

I have had to deal with a lot of medical issues and unwelcome diagnoses, but hearing the word cancer hits you so much differently. Most of us know someone who has had cancer, or maybe you have gone through this journey yourself. Not every cancer diagnosis is the same, which leads to a lot of questions and fear, but because each case is so individual, I have opted to not google much about it besides some basic information. Rest assured, once my doctor has the full picture of my personal case, I will get ALL the details (and share them with you).

While I never thought this blog would become a medical journal to document my cancer journey, I have decided to use it for this purpose for the foreseeable future.

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Thank you all, seriously from the bottom of my heart, your response has been overwhelming! I feel loved and cared for and am so incredibly thankful. 💜

Until Next Time

~Shari

Being Brave

Last Tuesday, January 13, I underwent a difficult surgery. You know I am usually an over-sharer,  but this surgery seemed too private to share. I am writing to ask for prayer, as things have taken an unexpected and heart-breaking turn. So now I am going to be brave and speak about something that seemed embarassing, but has turned out to be a great blessing.

I am so thankful for God's timing and providential care. My doctor had suggested I consider a breast reduction that could help with my chronic neck and back pain. It took a lot of convincing (almost two years from first mentioning it, to seeking insurance approval). It has been a rough first week of recovery, filled with doubts about if I made the right decision, and then this morning the phone rang...

The surgeon just called to tell me the biopsy report found invasive lobular breast cancer in both breasts. The surgeon said thank God that he did this surgery, as my mammogram did not pick up anything this past September, and that we wouldn't have wanted this to go undetected until next fall.  He believes we caught it early, but there will be testing in my future. My initial oncology consultation is February 4th, but they will get me in sooner if there is a cancellation.

Please pray for me and Chad as we figure out next steps, and pray for our children and family as we all come to grips with this news. We balance this news with the great joy of expecting our first grandchild in the next couple of weeks, and pray for her uneventful and healthy arrival!

I appreciate your fervent prayers on our behalf.

Until Next Time

~Shari


P.S. If you have 12 minutes, this video explains the type of cancer I have, but also shows why it is so hard to find it on mammogram and ultrasound.